Wonder.

What is wonder?

How does one wonder?
What is wonderful?
And what is wonderful?

      I love wondering, I think mostly because it never ends. When wondering, you are wandering a path in your head with no intended destination. In fact, the path is so wide, so long, and so high off the ground that you can never explore the entire thing. It's not even a place we should be able to get to! The beauty of the wonder-filled journey is that it cannot have a finishing point and very often also lacks a starting point. How do you really begin to wonder? The entire point of wondering is thinking about something that is too great to grasp - too great to even begin to consider how much we cannot know about it!
      Unfortunately, the wondering of this world has become focused on things and experiences to the point that 'wonderful' no longer has any significant meaning. We attempt to measure wonder with reason and then label objects according to their wonderfulness. Instead, we should recognize these things as good, as blessings for which we can be thankful. But our wondering should be reserved for those things that are truly wonderful.

Wonder. And let your mind wander.

Psalm

You,
  Whose Eyes glow
      as flames and embers everlasting,
  Whose face shines continually
      with the smile of Your precious favor,
  Only You are worthy
      of holy worship and proclamation,
So I will dance before my God;
  I will live and play in Your brilliance
      and dwell in Your delight.

Who am I,
  that you see me?
Who am I,
  that you know who I am?
And you've made me in your likeness!

Times are Changing

A week and a half, that's it. Then this chapter of my life is over. So much change in so little time: location, living situation, friends, schedules, activities... pretty much my whole life.

My mind swims from feelings of sadness to those of intense excitement, between the regret of treasures lost and anticipation of adventures waiting to be found. How does one even schedule time now? Or choose between friends to see? For that matter, which friendships will actually withstand these changes? Will I find friends as close as those I have now? What new opportunities will I find? And how will I deal with those lost?

So many questions, so many unanswerable variables... and yet, somehow I know it's going to be fantastic. These worries are already seeming to pass as I ask God for peace, and I know that He holds me and protects me as His own son. You tell me... what greater security can I ask for?!

Some thoughts on me...

Do I procrastinate?
Yes, I do. Just like every other senior in high school, I proudly procrastinate. Ok, maybe not so much PROUDLY, but you get the idea.

Do I hang my shirts inside out if that is how they came out of the dryer?
Also yes. Why? For the simple reason that it is a very practical form of procrastination...

Do I text?
Yes. And for the life of me I cannot understand why when I start texting everyone else decides that calling is the better option... When it costs me to text, people always text me, but now that it doesn't cost they would rather call. I guess it's not such a bad thing, talking and all. Probably an improvement actually!

Do I like coffee?
If you don't know that answer to this question, we should probably hang out sometime. Text me.

What kind of music do I like?
Anything... My favorite songs exist in every genre. If you need an introduction to classical music, check out Tchaikovsky's Violin Concerto in D major. I'm going to learn that someday, then I'll play it for you!

Favorite food?
The kind that you eat, as long as it's not carrots or raw broccoli or plain celery or cauliflower and it doesn't taste or smell funny... I'll eat most things.

Why haven't I written for a long time?
Truthfully, I have no real reason. I have had inspiration - plenty of it! - but I have not needed the medium of writing to express myself. It was just on the backburner... This post was so much fun that I'm sure I will resume at least one post every week, especially now that summer has come full circle again and I have almost nothing to do. Let me know if you enjoy my writing though, that will spur me on to write like nothing else! I'm actully not really sure that anyone will read this because it's been so long in coming...